living by.

people lie. they say they have your back, but they really dont. if you're gonna talk, then back it up with your actions. don't just say one thing but really do another. think about peoples feelings for one time in your life. shit kills. people take things personally. you really can't expect anything from anyone. they're just going to let you down one way or another. don't ever let your guard fall, even if you think you can trust someone. the only person you can 100% trust is YOURSELF. no one else will understand you completely. people suck. end of story. trust no one, depend on yourself, don't get hurt.

ohlala

its freaking 4am.
I'm sitting in front of the laptop.
listening to the those melancholic songs.
reminiscing, I feel myself tearing.

I am a happy person, generally, I don't turn emo :/
oh well.

9 tryouts.
3 sbs
none worked out.

you did the most amazing job by stalling all 12 choices.
I think you're still irresistible after all these years.

OF oh OF, don't play anymore.

SAM 09 I

the times we just sit down & talk about nothing.
the times we kept laughing over the lame things we said.
the times we try to make one laugh w/ Kumar's jokes.
the times we'll just stare at each other, wondering where & what to eat.
the times we are always there to celebrate each & everyone's birthday.
the times where we always make an effort to make everyone feel special.
the times we will always wait for everyone's food to come before feasting.
the times Kylie will always be having her camera almost everytime & everywhere she goes.
the times when the drivers start drifting and racing, BROAD DAY LIGHT!
the times we had, all good & bad, it is all memorable.


how I am going to miss being a SAM student.
the ever most noisy class, everrrrrrr, in Disted.
& the course where everyone is close to everyone.

I am proud to be one of SAM09.
I will definitely miss everyone when this end, even if I don't talk much to some.
I will always miss the Moral & M'sian Studies classes together.
our one whole big family :D


this is just another chapter of life, right? :)

final

I need to repent.
final is coming soon :(

Note to self.
sleep early please.

new hair cut

cut my hair.
hate the fringe to the core now :(








it looks uglier right now
I swear.


FML

super random

Random facts about me @ 4am, Sept 5, 2009

I am a girl.
I fall in love easily, almost as easy as ABC, I always get mixed signals, I am always having second thoughts, I do the most obvious things, I can be a little sneaky too, I randomly stalk someone I don't know, I cry a little when I feel too happy, I laugh a little too loud most of the times, I don't always get the attention I want, I always like the wrong person, I give up easily, I screw things up easily, I can't cook, I like baking, I hate annoying beat-around-the-bush people, I watch football under the influence of my family, I play dotA, I like L4D, I know I'm fat but I don't do anything about it, I like writing quotes, pick-up lines cheer me up, I don't text 24/7, I hate driving because I'm traumatized, I am a pretty damn good liar, I am good in manipulating people, my conversations usually drift away from its original topic, I am more of a daddy's girl than mummy's angel, I like alcohol, I get stressed up over things I shouldn't be, I always finish my exam papers earlier than usual, I like strawberry flavoured ice cream but not the strawberry fruit itself, I like chocolate but not chocolate flavoured ice cream, I am very creepy, I walk without sound, sometimes, I have sleeping disorders (yes, disorders).

Smart people makes me high, sarcasm is my second language, I like buying books but never really reading them, I waste money like drinking water or breathing oxygen, I still can't make up my mind what to study, I used to play the piano, I would love to paint my room black, I can talk to anyone about anything, I change my mind too often, no one knows my darkest secret, I remember every little conversation I have with everyone but not everything my lecturers teach, I am a huge procrastinator, I always plan but never follow, I am a sucker for musically inclined human beings, I always pull a strong face, I get pretty random in the middle of the night.

For example; now -.-



/dies.

girls day out

shopping & fish spa.
no elaboration needed.
I miss the good old times
*beams*

You found Me

Where were you, when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
& all I needed was a call that never came... ♥

some truth

Get dirty. Get fucking filthy. Get poor. Get off your ass. Get desperate. Get dangerous. Get vilified. Get vile. Get pro-active. Get started. Get your own life. Get doing something. Anything.

Because before you know it you’re 40 with kids, a mortgage, and responsibilities that cause your fun to come second. So before cancer, before children, before 50 hour work weeks, before back and knee problems, before school loans, before you lose your sense of humor… Fight. Fight and fuck and run and smile. Smile because the older you get, the less you will. So yes, “quit being such a goddamn pussy,” because bitching and whining and worry never made anything better.

over again

I finally drag myself to update my blog.
been so busy... & lazy at the same time.
been out & around since trial is over
tee hee (:

this is only short term happiness la.
There are still finals coming this Nov.
oh the joyyyy -.-

Since my trial is over, I shall write a recap on all my papers. HEEEEEHEEEE

ESL
The first paper. I was worried sick bout the listening comprehension the night before & I totally suck at writing letters too :( First hour was spent doing the listening comprehension, quite screwed up actually, they asked for eight factors and somehow I amazingly just wrote seven :( and there are others which I forgotten. Then comes the essay, took longer than an hour to finish, then the damn letter. HAHAHAHA it sucked, I chose to write bout the ban of using mobile phones in school. Kill me, I think I did pretty bad in this, no distinction :/

MATHEMATICAL STUDIES
the second paper, taken later on the first day. It was one of the best paper -____- it was as thick as a book, no wait, it is a book, with approx 38 pages I think. I sat there and just stared at it, not knowing how to do, well at least I know some, mostly those you can count with the calculator which barely carry any high marks. So yeah, I'll probably fail Maths. I consider it lucky if I can get 20 and above :) *praysss*

ECONOMICS
Second day, third paper, as fatal as the second paper :/ I studied everything, I swear I did. Panic attacks, I totally forgotten what is the two fiscal policies, I remember expansionary but I forgotten all bout contractionary, it was so sad. The whole paper looked sad. I swear it was frowning at me, well that's if the paper can show emotions laaa. *sighs*

PSYCHOLOGY
I love this paper. The tips all came out right, I didn't really studied it till the night before but I'm quite happy with it. Especially the extended part, yummm, the four stages of explanations, I was so glad the exact same questions came out. This is the only paper I can count on now :)

ACCOUNTING STUDIES
I swear I was so confident about everything when I walked in the exam room. I remember I was just reading bout the Breakeven thingy seconds before I sat down, but when I flipped through the papers, I totally blanked out, just like during my Economics paper, and the Cash Budget, it was my confident part but I left it blank, 28 marks gone down the drain. I totally forgotten how to do everything, I wanted to kill myself for it, but oh well. Last paper is always bittersweet :)


The good thing is trial finally is over.
The bad thing is I totally screwed it & I lost my motivation to study for Finals already.


Can someone slap some sense out of me to make me study arrr ?
I can't stand being so carefree -.- I feel so out of place when I see people preparing for finals already, I think last minute work is so me. Someone just have to change my view, seriously.

It's Merdeka Eve anyway, I'm at home, rotting.
such a nice day to sleep, seriously.
I could sleep for the whole day today but no, I feel wrong sleeping too much.
Sleeping is not my thing, at least not usually.
HAHAHA



did I mention MANCHESTER UNITED WON lastnight, against ARSENAL?
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA, I must say it is not their best game but they are DAMN LUCKY.
Penalty, own goal & offside last minute.
How lucky can they get? :)